Often, I find myself at a loss. Things never seem to be as they usually are, and thus, possibilities which should be, are not. The confusion never get easier. I have been forced into the whims of those who think they know what they want, but realize what a mistake they indeed made. This is how I find myself with the feelings of malice and despondency, but I have a release. Apathy.
We can all agree, there are times we do not know what to do, and rightly we destroy the inside of ourselves for the answer. Not anymore, I say. With apathy, comes great comfort. When times find you in doubt, do nothing. What is the worse scenario? It is usually not as bad as you would think. It has occurred to me, it is often best to do nothing, for something gives you room for error. Do not have expectations. They are bastards there to kill you are fuck your wounds.
Take schooling for example. Now do not get me wrong, I do not pretend to assume not going to class or not paying attention in the least is good, but rather effort is your enemy. If you attend a class and then work, and study, and blow the teacher, and in the end you get nothing more than a “C” or less, then you are swarmed with an overwhelming feeling of distain and abhorrence. Now, take the same scene and add a little apathy. You go to class, listen, and do not take notes. When you get your marks back, you can realize your true nature. That mark represents pure knowledge and skill. None of that studying had anything to do with that masterpiece.
Now, I know what you are thinking. “Stud, what other applications does this method hold for me?” Many, is my answer. “Stud, since your name is in fact Studly-C, can, and how is this method used in the art of love?” Well first reader, you are a fucking dolt. Even though I am indeed called Studly-C, the name has no baring on my abilities with the ladies. I am lonely. Secondly, it works fabulously in the love situation. For you see, when the circumstance arises, and that special someone turns around and hates you, or they tell you something you can respect, but still leaves you sad because you realize the extent of your feelings for the one person, then do what I do. Nothing! Admire the person from a fare, and then when they are ready, finally notice your existence, or see you in the bushes, then they will come to you. Now they may come to you with adoration, friendship, or a restraining order, depending on the circumstances.
Nevertheless, in all of my years of practice in the art of Apathy (which I have a masters in Apathy and Ignorance from the International University of Nescience) I have never seen it fail. Because I am happy with my station in life. I am content. I am content. I am content. …. I hate my life.